The Forest of Red Leaves

Pricked Thumbs.
Don’t you dare say a thing
Who are you to dare to judge me?
You with all your many flaws
Enough to compete with my own
How can you sit there and judge me based on what you see of me?
How can you smile and shake your head in that way?
When you should be looking in the mirror
And pierce the misty glass to see what thorns lie beneath
The polished surface
Everyone is a rainbow
But everyone too has their own stones
Beneath the running water
How dare any of you say a thing?
My thumb is as pricked as yours
And I do admit that I am as unlovely as anyone else
But you are the unloveliest of us all
You and your fine words
You and your words that you mutter
Condescending, patronizing
Who the hell are you?

Mishrak an thouc
I love you
As the wind blows
I love you
As the night falls
I love you
As the summer breeze sighs
I love you
As the water flows
I love you
As the leaves stir
I love you
Mishrak an thouc
Solmiester
Dolce an thok

I wash my hands of you
I no longer wish
To be associated with you
To have your
Contamination upon my
                    words
                         my
                                  music
                                       my
                                                 life
Cold water
sparkling and clean
Trails along the path of my life
Against
                cool
                            granite
                                             boulders
I'd
      stand in the rain
I'd
      light a candle
I'd
      recreate my sanctuary of friends
You
      and your pompous
                                arrogant
                                      closeminded
                                                            ways
Keep away from me
And keep the night sky clear for me
I may
           nod to
                      you as
                                  I walk
                                             down the street
But that
               is all
                        I'll give you
Clear-headed
Alive
Happy
I want to be.

I scream
As I walk away from everything I know
As I walk into the cold wind which stings my face and whips my hair back
My feet pound the pavement
It is cold and dark and the night is dangerous
But I do not care
Reckless
I keep moving
My mind aches and so does my heart
In the dark
Only the wind and the night and the stars are my friends
The air takes me in
I throw my head back and fall into the stars
Anguish
anguish
Is what we all feel
Tell me
tell me
what we are suppose to feel
Crying doesn't help
Shouting does
Help me
help me
Find my peace of mind
I can't find it here tonight
Where is it?

Steam rises from the water
Pooling, deepening into it
Into the cup
Of dark depths silence

I awake somewhere before moonlight
And after sunlight

The sun falls across the windows
How does it know
It will ripen everything
In its path
Thus - share! O, loving sunlight
Your warmth with me

My hand shakes as I light the candle
The sweet scent of its fragrance drags me somewhere else

Sanctuary
The dark chases me back to my room
In the warmth of my sanctuary I stare out at it

Damselflies flutter back and forth
Iridescent
Their beauty won't last forever
Across the pond
Their wings hover like shards of rainbows
shattered
My only dream for you